Thursday, January 1, 2009

525,600 Minutes

How do you measure a year? By any measure, 2008 was not a particularly good time for anyone I know. Having said that, I was fortunate enough to not lose my house in a wildfire that came way too close for comfort, nor have there been any foreclosures in my circle of friends, so at least we all still have a roof over our heads. There have been many disappointments, frustrations and sadnesses, but despite everything I somehow end the year and start this new one with a sense of...dare I say it...hope. Not the trite "yes we can" kind, although I am a supporter of our new president, but rather the personal light-in-the-darkness kind. Following a meme that's going around, here's my synopsis.

List 5 Five Good Things That Happened Last Year:
1. I rode Missy exclusively for the entire year.
2. I became much closer with a girlfriend I've known for a long time, a relationship that's had its ups and downs.
3. I took more pictures...still not as many as I would have liked, but an improvement over the previous year.
4. I went home (to Canada) for the first time in 3 years.
5. I feel much more comfortable and competent with the most challenging parts of my job.

List 3 Bad Things that Happened to You this Year:
1. I lost my best friends.
2. My long-dormant endometriosis raised its ugly head and affected my riding and my state of mind.
3. I spent much of the year fighting depression.

List 5 things you want to do in 2009 - not resolutions just a big picture to do list:
1. Ride more consistently and get Missy out of the arena and more comfortable being in open areas.
2. Go to the World Cup Finals in Las Vegas in April.
3. Write more -- I'd like to start work on something, I'm hesitant to call it a novel but there's definitely a story in my head trying to get out, and also here on my blog as it helps me to process the events of my day-to-day life.
4. Take better care of myself, listen to the cues my body gives me.
5. Ask for help when I need it, try not to live in my head and to speak my mind.

List 3 Lessons you Learned in 2008 - don't have to be related to the bad or good things as long as it was learned in 2008.
1. Things (and people) aren't always what they seem. I keep having to re-learn this year after year.
2. I still have a lot of stuff to work through.
3. I'm a better person than I think I am, my horse told me so.

Most Favorite Read of the Year:
Human Traces by Sebastian Faulks. I'd never read anything by Faulks before and now I am hooked and can't wait to read the rest of his body of work. It was the kind of book that I had to bookmark pages of so I could go back and read passages over again just for the beauty of the language, and it takes a lot to impress me literarily. Bringing together the history of psychiatry with a compelling love story in a historical setting was my cup of tea.

Most Favorite Movie Watched of the Year:
Atonement. Hands down.

Most Favorite Horsey Moment of the Year:
Cantering on Missy after owning her for 2 years and riding her for a year and a half.

Santa ordered me a new helmet for Christmas and it comes with a free matching fleece jacket! I ride English but I wear jeans and brown suede half-chaps, so the black velvet helmet is a bit out of place, besides, this one is a lot more comfortable and has great airflow. I should get it next week. What did Santa bring you?


  1. Cool helmet!
    [& if I were w/in trailering distance, I'd love to escort you on a few rides - mentoring really strikes a chord for me]
    It's amazing what a few weeks of relaxed trail riding has done for Mr B's presence-of-mind.

  2. I have that exact helment and I love it. I am sure you will too.

    My two important gifts this year were a yard cart and an italian cook book.

    Love you list btw.

  3. I have that it. Happy to see that you have found so many positives in 2008.

    Favorite gifts this year..a nice Oster clipper and a photo album of my little nephew.

  4. Lots of food for thought here! Wishing you a fabulous 2009. Looking forward to keeping up with you. Eager to hear more about your writing ideas...

  5. Looking at all those minutes makes me nervous.....somehow it doesn't seem like enough, maybe.......I don't know.

    You're right about things not always being what they seem. I think we all go through that over and over. I think the game may be the same but the details are different so we miss them. Then we wonder why. Learning to trust that little voice that warns us can be hard.....heck, sometimes just identifying that voice can be hard. But it's OK, it's all part of this human condition.

    I got my red coat for Christmas. I'm loving it!

  6. That was a great "meme". What does that mean anyway - meme?? Anyway, you did a great job, sounds like overall a very positive year to me. Ups and downs are just life I guess. You have done a lot and articulate your thoughts and feelings quite well. I will definitely check out the Faulks books, sound very interesting to me, and the movie. Thanks!! Always enjoy a good read or a movie. I know all about fighting depression, especially in the long winter months, keep up the good fight. Blogging/writing seems to help me. I enjoy the insights of others, like you. Hopefully 2009 will be even better.