My current/former employer continues to play games, apparently thinking that the contradictory statements they keep throwing out about me to various people inside and outside the company (and I use the term "contradictory statements" well-advisedly) won't get back to me. Just because I don't have access to my company email anymore doesn't mean I'm totally out of the loop.
I feel like I've gotten through the worst of this, I can stand to have the sling taken off, my shirt changed and the sling put back on without feeling like I am going to pass out. However, I am extremely emotional and end up in tears at least once a day. There seems to be two sides to everything these days. I can now sleep for 6 hours without waking up, but when I do, I wake up in considerable pain. For the next few days I'm going to set an alarm for 3 hours from lights out to try to avoid this...pain is no way to start the day.
I am not a patient person, which makes me a terrible patient. I wonder how those two very different meanings can fit inside the same word.
Here's a partial list of things I cannot do -- right now:
- lie down
- cut meat
- open a pill bottle
- groom, tack or ride my horse
- blow dry my hair
- walk for any distance
- fold laundry
And, because I'm really trying here, a partial list of things I can do -- right now:
- drive my car (with extra care and caution)
- wash my face and brush my teeth
- work the computer mouse and type with one finger
- put in my contacts (this takes patience but is possible)
- make coffee and tea
- grow beautiful long fingernails
- sing along with my favorite tunes, off-key and unapolegetic
Miss gets her teeth floated on Thursday, she's overdue for her yearly appointment. It's been apparent for a while that her mouth has been bothering her, even in a hackamore she's been fighting me and throwing her head around for a month or so. No doubt this contributed to her pissy mood 2 weeks ago when she walked away from the mounting block. (Very painful) lesson learned: sometimes saving money by postponing necessary vet work turns out to be a very bad idea.