Physical therapy continues to be painful but extremely beneficial, and I am committed to increasing my range of motion every day. This means pushing myself past the pain to move my arm just a little bit further each time. At times I am still discouraged and frustrated and depressed, but now I can at least see the light at the end of the tunnel.
Mother's Day is always a very tough day for me. I'm not a mother -- and wanted to be one -- and I am estranged from my own mother. I sent her a card but I did not want to speak to her, she just called me last month and I really have nothing to say to her. A woman who has acted as my surrogate Mom for many years is also missing from my life right now, but I am hopeful that this situation can change.
In the meantime, enjoy the beauty of our dogs' favorite walk along the beach; this is about 15 minutes from home.
Your dogs are gorgeous. The walkway along the beach is gorgeous. (Are those ducks?)
ReplyDeleteIt is a great sign that the interview process is continuing and you are so brave to push yourself with the physical therapy. There are a lot of positives here! Yes, I am not surprised about the frustration and dejection because I go through that still. I have something temporary but no full time job yet so it's hard to keep the self defeatist thoughts out. But you are doing really well.
Mother's day used to be tough for me too because my own relationship with my mother. It has taken work on both our parts to get past that. A big part has been my accepting that she will never see anything she has done to me as wrong, or anything she has done wrong, as wrong. So, I don't ask any more. On her side I think it's probably accepting as well that I won't see her the exact same way she sees herself, although she still tries. I hope your surrogate mom comes back to your life -- she sounds nice.
Good luck with the interview process!
Venus, those are pelicans on the rock.
ReplyDeleteI've been through many years of trying with my mother and we have come to a point where we know what kind and how frequent our contact can be. It's superficial and infrequent but it's better than nothing, which we've also tried. My mother has narcissistic personality disorder (although she will tell you she's the sanest person on the planet), and a huge part of that manifests itself in the form of pathological lying, which I can not abide nor enable.
So far I've been to the campus of Potential Employer three times and been interviwed seven times. I think I am done now and hope that I will either get an offer or a no thank you by the end of the week.
Love your adorable dogs! Beautiful, beautiful photos!
ReplyDeleteWow - only 15 min away?!?
ReplyDeleteI think it would be impossible to pry me away...
I was a Bad Daughter & spent Mother's Day well, just being a mom myself! which means I did a little housework (those bedsheets weren't going to change themselves), went out to brunch w/husband & son, went to see the new Star Trek movie, took my son & my new protege riding...
Then I was plain & simple out of time, but I think my mom understood. I took her out to dinner last night, & w/the painless social lubrication of a single glass of wine, got through it relatively unscathed.
Gorgeous pics!!!! Pet the puppies for me! ((HUGS))
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to hear that about your mother. If she's not going to try or recognize that there is something wrong with her behavior then there's not much you can do. :( One person can't mend a relationship. I am so sorry. I know this must be a source of considerable stress along with everything (I went back and read some of your earlier posts). Hope there's good news at the end of all those campus visits and interviews - that's quite a lot! Keeping my fingers firmly crossed for you!!
ReplyDelete(Pelicans make more sense than ducks by the ocean. ;)
What happy dogs you have!
ReplyDeleteI'm going through some growing pains with my Mom at present. I've finally come to the conclusion, after many years of attempting to establish a healthy relationship, that an arm's length arrangement is the healthiest option for me and my Dad. People who have had great relationships with their parents are simply unable to understand the dynamics of an unhealthy one.
Don't put too much stock into Mother's Day...it's just an arbitrary day that was assigned meaning. As many of my blogger friends have pointed out, if you mother anything, you qualify. So, I'd say that your happy furbabies make you worthy of the title.
Thank you for stopping by my place and for leaving such a lovely note.
*hugs*
Carolynn
Good luck in with your job lead, my last day of work was Friday, and I am hoping something comes up soon.
ReplyDeleteYou dogs are precious. And lovely shots!
Oh, thanks a lot Donna, now I'm homesick!!! I was really starting to settle into Singapore with it's own kind of beauty but seeing my old neighborhood along WCD makes me want to come home again. Hopefully we'll be able to make a visit back in July. Can't wait to see you and the boys.
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